There are days when I wake up and feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. So many unanswered questions that leave me lying awake at night. The uncertainty of what is to come exhausts every fibre within my soul. It’s frustrating that I am not where I want to be, to feel how I want to feel and to do what I want to do.
When will things change?
When will the pain really end?
When can I move on?
Will I ever be happy again?
Why does it feel like I am constantly running away?
What am I even running from?
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.– Psalm 27:14
His promises are good even when I don’t see them now. My past is a testimony of all that He has done for me. And every single one of those blessings were more than my mind could ever imagine and greater than my heart could ever desire.
I know, it’s hard to just trust Him. We’re human, and very often we forget everything that He has already done for us. We’re constantly trying to figure out what will happen next. We’re overeager about our next blessing that we forget to appreciate everything we have in the present. We’re trying so hard to make things work out by ourselves when all He tells us to do is to have faith and wait.
I hate to wait. It makes me anxious and nervous. It makes me doubt if good things will ever happen again. It robs me of enjoying what I have now.
I hate to wait.
But it is in the waiting when God can turn things around.