“I’ve had a lot of worries in my life, most of which never happened.”
― Mark Twain
It’s the demons in your head telling you that you cannot. It’s the hurricane of emotions that you allow yourself to feel. It’s the thoughts speeding through that keep you captive. It’s the inability to control that you lose who you are.
You have allowed negativity to seep through your veins. You think that the world is against you. You think that people reject you. You think that you will lose the people you love. You have become a prisoner of yourself. But the fact of the matter is, the problems that you think about, the problems that cause you to have sleepless nights, are all created by your own imagination.
Why worry about the things that are out of your control? Why be sad over something that is not under your dominion? Why exhaust all your energy over things that never actually happen?
It’s funny, isn’t it?
You hit 20, and you’re expected to get everything figured out. Everyone starts saying you’re an adult when all you are is a child stuck in an older person’s body. Clueless, lost and out-of-control. That’s what you are. But it’s okay. It’s okay because you’re still learning. In fact, you never do stop learning. Not even when you’re old. No one ever truly figures life out anyway.
So you’re still feeling lost at this whole “adult” thing. And that’s fine. Just keep looking forward, be positive about the future and stop depriving yourself of your own joy. It will be okay. Baby steps.
Baby steps. And just remember to live.
“Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.”
― Ashley Smith